Woke up this morning, decided today would be better than yesterday. Started this year determined it would be better than last year. Promised myself I would stop making promises. Decided to stay single so I could meet my future wife. Even said I would stop shopping so I could take more trips (for which I would need to shop). But this morning, I decided I was being too controlling of my own life. Speaking to someone from my past of my recent shenanigans, I hear myself turning into a me I worked so hard not to become. I am becoming less mature, more worrisome about nonsense.
I need to vacate nonsense's premises...and I mean that in both the ways you just thought it, or at least should have. I've clearly been on vacation here wayyyy too long. Meditation beckons. I haven't in weeks...ok months...and I know it's not good to starve my soul but I thought it'd be the easiest way to lose weight since my heart's been so heavy lately. I realize now exercising love makes it stronger...makes me stronger.
I'm in this for the long haul. I ain't never been scared to bust a sweat.
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