Even though it's not that easy, I'm trying my hardest to be strong and leave this situation alone. Trying my damndest not to answer the calls, not to say the I love you's, not to yearn for her. But I do. I miss her and need her and am so disgusted by the thought of her at times I cant understand why I hate not waking up to her every morning.
Then you call and I'm confused because you are here and she is not. But I would rather her here than you...rather her annoy me than you make me laugh.
I guess it's just like that sometimes.
And even though I try to pretend, try to hide my longing for her, you can tell. I can see that. It hurts you and for that I'm sorry. Bad timing seems to be the story of my life.
Even though it's not that easy, you being here is making it harder. I don't want to push you away but I have to. If I don't do it now, you'll fall in love with me while I'm still in love with her. You don't want that for yourself. It's never a happy ending.
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